The world can be very ugly but at the same time, if everything was beautiful and nothing is ugly, then what would be the basis for beauty? How would we tell the difference between what is beautiful and what is not? If everything was beautiful, would that make the least beautiful thing the ugliest thing, or would it mean that everything will be exactly the same?
I have come to believe that there is no true right or wrong. There is no good or evil, just people classifying what was convenient for them as good and right, while everything else that isn’t is evil and wrong. In a fight, each side believes that they are right and the other side is wrong. Nobody fights for what they think is wrong, at least none that I know of. So in the end, what is right and what is wrong? What is good and what is evil?
I have always wished for godly powers – the power to make things the way I want them to be; to make something appear or disappear; to make things do what I want them to do. But, if I had that kind of power and I fixed everything the way into how I believe they should be, would everyone agree because they love it, or would they agree simply because they fear my wrath? Do I have to change the way everyone is too?
Sometimes I just wish I grew up differently than how I grew up to be. Sometimes I just wish I had all the wisdom I have now when I was a little child. That way, I could have avoided a lot of the mistakes I regret ever committing but then again, if I never made those mistakes, I never would have learned everything I know now. Should I be thankful to have become this way, or am I right in thinking that I should have been someone else?
I think too much. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t even be thinking about the things that I think about like this one because I also know that it will simply be an endless loop with no real answer, with no real ending. Sometimes I just hate the way I am because no one I know right now will every truly understand, but then again, I don’t truly understand anyone I know right now. Should I hate myself, or should I hate everyone else?
Did you ever think about all these things that I have mentioned, or did I just give you something new to think about? If you have thought of any of these, have you ever found a real answer? If you haven’t ever before until reading this, do you wish you never read this in the first place or are you happy to have something new to think about?